February Progress Report on My Resolutions

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self-careIt’s February 5th. My thought yesterday was that I failed my January target habit. My seemingly ever-positive boyfriend pointed out, “You’ve gone to bed by 9 PM more times this month than you ever have in your life.” I realize he may be right. I have made progress this January. I have gone to bed by 9 PM on at least 4 days per week and been exercising almost every day.

The main changes I made to my life that helped with January’s target habit are:

-Sleeping with the cell phone in the kitchen instead of the bedroom.

-Wearing workout pants daily instead of jeans or slacks. One step less to get met to the gym!

-Placing clothes appropriate for both work and gym by my alarm clock to put on when I awaken.

-Replacing journaling as the habit to address anxiety over reading random items online on my phone.

The feeling of destressing through exercise has helped me to get out of bed early and to get to bed early. Monday evenings have been Pilates. Tuesday and Thursdays have been grueling workouts at 5 AM or 4 PM at the gym. I’ve been doing an hour or more of yoga on Wednesdays and Saturdays. I want to start running more on Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday mornings. I recently found out one of my coworkers has the same running schedule but she has been working out a lot less than I have due to having to take care of a sick husband and kids. We intend to meet up to run three mornings per week, which should help with my motivation: motivating another. Hiking has been less frequent lately. I’ve been trying to reserve Sundays for hiking with my mom but our sleep schedules just haven’t matched up and weather hasn’t been great. I think I need to be more gung-ho about going outside on Sundays because it is motivation for me to go to and get out of bed. My recent car problems have not helped. I suppose that, for now, I will stay in on Sundays and try to be self motivated until I make the effort to purchase a new car in about a month. Or I could just do local trails on good weather days and yoga indoors on non-good weather days. I am not feeling ready to start my February target goal as of yet until I increase the percentage of days I meet my January goal by just a tad.

I have been feeling a ton of stress at work and at home due to the health of my aging parents, the ever increasing demands of very needy parents, the ever increasing number of aides under my supervision… They are preparing me to take on only the kids with the severest disabilities next school year and each student will have his or her own aide! And then I learned some new secrets yesterday that made me realize how many people must be struggling with much more difficult problems than I have ever had inside. It’s time that I see how wonderful my life is: from the school garden I finally had planted to the many doors open to me now. And to warm dinners at my dad’s to at least having a chance at Sundays with a healthy mom. That’s more than some people will ever have because life is short. I thought his life was perfect but I guess no one’s life is perfect no matter how it may appear. To those of you out there struggling through life’s daily difficulties, I have this message:

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Do you ever feel like your work life is more rewarding and engaging than your personal life?

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Do you ever feel like your work life is more rewarding and engaging than your personal life? My brother says he finds both boring! Yikes! I guess I have at least one part of my life engaging for me! Aside from my morning yoga practice, I don’t look forward to much outside of work. Time to spice it up and make some changes! 😀 Suggestions?

 

By the way, I know this is a short post, but I just posted three blogs to catch up for my lack of blogging on my foodtrek website. Hope all is well out there with you and yours! Happy Lunar New Year!

2017 Resolutions

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Dear Friends and Families,
Please help me with my New Year’s Resolutions by asking how I am doing on my Goal/ Habit of the Month whenever you can and providing strong words of encouragement or punishment, depending on how I am doing! Thanks! I appreciate you and your help!
2017 Habit Goals in Order of Adoption

January- Go to bed by 9PM daily.

February- Practice yoga for at least 5 minutes daily.

March- Meditate daily.

April- Spend at least 5 minutes cleaning/ organizing the classroom daily.

May- Spend at least 5 minutes cleaning/ organizing the house daily.

June- Practice piano for at least 20 minutes daily.

July- Read or write for at least 5 minutes daily.

August- Prep for next day before going to bed daily.

September-Cook/ Prep food for next day before going to bed daily.

October- Exercise 5-7 days per week.

November-Study Spanish for at least 5 minutes per day daily.

December- Study Chinese for at least 5 minutes per day daily.

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When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

Alexander Graham Bell

As the sun sets tonight, I find myself feeling sadness.

I’ve been wanting to write for some time now. I have so many thoughts and questions in my head…

It was my yoga teacher’s last day today. I don’t understand why I feel so sad about this! He’s moving…Not dying! I guess emotions aren’t always rational…

There’s a quiet…a stillness in the house save the shadows of the windblown trees silhouetted in the swiftly fading golden light of the setting sun outside and my mind drifts to other events that help wrap the blanket of sadness around me tighter….

The odd one-word text message from my best friend who isn’t picking up her phone today, “patentductusarteriosas.” It scares me. Does it mean this is the condition of her youngest child?

About a week ago, I heard from a ghost… Text messages for two days from someone I haven’t heard from in the seven years since our divorce. This last week, his mother and sister traveled the long distance to go see him. I think something is wrong and have to accept that there is still nothing I can do even after all of these years. I am not sure why he reached out to me as if there was something I could do about his troubles. I could never fix him before and don’t have the power to do so now. I didn’t tell his family he had contacted me in case of any assumptions his wife might harbor.

And so this thought of relief washes over me…I can’t control it. I have no control over any of this… No control over if people I like move away, if children may struggle with heart conditions and over whether my ex is resilient enough to pick himself back up…And I am okay with that because if I could foresee those events, I wouldn’t have been pleasantly  surprised by all of the moments that brought wonderment and happiness to my life this week: taking my mom to her first bowling game, playing with my nephews, meeting several new workout partners and making a few new friends, reconnecting with old friends … So many things… I like life as it is: unpredictable….capricious…melodious at times and cacophonous at other times…

Update: My friend’s text was accidental and for work, not regarding her kids at all. Phew!

The Unknown

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The school year draws to an end once more. There are 3.5 days left and I am feeling euphoric.

Tonight I attended a district recognition dinner. One of the employees is retiring after a staggering 41 years! I can not imagine staying any one place so long but who knows?

I am enjoying the end of this school year as I see so many unforeseen occurrences yet to come! I am excited  by the unpredictability of life!

This year, I ran my first 10 k and then stopped exercising. Yikes! Need to get back on that…. I got closer to my immediate family by spending time with them. This is the year that my class got so large in numbers, it was split mid-year, which has never happened to me! I thought people didn’t listen to teachers but my principal stepped in and helped us split up several classes and hired new teachers! How refreshing to see there are still bosses out there who care! I will miss him!!!! This year, I made a ton of progress with piano by quitting dance… I just need to do some other form of exercise now or go back… I actually said “No” to tutoring which I have never done. Saying “No” to something was a milestone for me. I wanted more time for me and less tutoring other people’s kids… This is the year that we got a grant to start a school garden. I was denied this opportunity at the last school I was at… My mom started a new job after quitting the job she had since I was in third grade. My brother and his girlfriend moved in together. My neighbor of over two decades passed away. My bestie gave birth to her second child. And that my mom started hiking with me. What is next? I can hardly wait to find out what unfolds in the next year!

What unexpected things happened in the last year in your life? Do the unknown parts of life excite you too?

 

 

Wheel of Life

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Monetary success is not success. Career success is not success. Life, someone that loves you, giving to others, doing something that makes you feel complete and full. That is success. And it isn’t dependent on anyone else. – James Avery

It’s another long weekend which means time to blog!!!!!!!!! 🙂

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My latest link to share: You Won’t Find Your Calling in Ego-Based Learning

The premise: The best learning isn’t the required content of school or what we study for career success. The deepest learning comes from the learning with intrinsic value… Something I believe I don’t put enough time into because pursuing career and monetary success comes much easier to me.

Things that remind me of impermanence lately:

  • The announcement that my principal is moving on to greener pastures. I will be forever grateful for what he did to create a happy work environment! We are all worried of possible impending changes…
  • My sister’s boss became Fire Department Chief only to pass away a week later! Goes to show you that career success means so little.
  • My BFF’s oldest turned 3 last Tuesday and we had a big birthday party for her on Saturday. Time changes everything.

Somehow, we have to make time for the things that have intrinsic value to us… What do you do to make time for those worthwhile parts of your life outside of everyday work? Does setting boundaries between Work Life and Outside of Work Life come easily to you?

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Grandpa Pushed Grandma out of the way Before Getting run Over Himself. Meet ‘The Hero’ — Kindness Blog

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A man was severely injured after being struck by an alleged drunk driver. Max Green, 85, of Pima, was nearly across the street with his wife, Nathalene Green, 83, when he saw the van coming and bravely pushed Nathalene out of the way, sacrificing himself to save her. Nathalene got knocked to the ground, but […]

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Appreciating Mom and All Parts of My Life

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So I felt pretty sick the last couple of days and have decided to take the weekend off from work things (except for the brief emails/ texts I’ve done already…Haha!) I am enjoying my weekend! I guess I shouldn’t have waited until I was sick to take a break…

So many exciting things happening in my life right now!

Monday I have arranged therapy dogs to visit our school! I can’t wait to see the kids’ faces!

I have paid for my flights and “hotels” for my summer trip. Now I just need to register for the test I was going to take before my trip! Haha! Priorities!

My music teacher is going to perform in an international competition with his choir with Eric Whitacre! How exciting! If you haven’t heard of him, please google! Definitely worth it to hear his music! He went to college not knowing what he wanted to do and joined a choir “for the chicks” and due to his natural talent is now an internationally renowned composer. You may have seen his TED talks.

I was showered with gifts during Teacher Appreciation Week. Classified Staff Apprieciation Week is coming soon. I want to get the parents to show appreciation to my aides! I need to think of some ideas!

My mom has been a super trooper going hiking with me! We recently did a 9,399 elevation hike. I have done this one several times and it was her first time on this one along with one of my friends. Both of them are in their 60s. I hope I can still hike like them when I’m in my 60s because they were hiking much faster than I was for many parts of the hike!  There are so many peaks and hikes to do in California! An ex of mine gave me this handy link: The Hills are Alive. My mom also cooked, got a splinter out of my wrist and killed a roach for me after the hike! Lol!

And now I’ve done nothing all day today except pinterest random things, pay some online bills, purchase grad gifts for a coworker’s daughters and drink tea! Next, I’m hitting the pizza place and a mall that isn’t as close as I’d like it to be… I’m bringing along a friend for company… Thoughts about this…

My coworker and I sat in the lounge after work on Friday night and talked about how much more enjoyable a solo evening at home in bed with a TV and pet it is than to have human company on most nights of the week. She has a boyfriend who visits her two nights per week. I agreed with her that this is just so much work! I did not share with her my solution to this: Mr Right Now because I am too lazy for a real relationship! I don’t think I have this! My closest friends all would rather spend time with their husbands and children and I don’t blame them, so if I need company, I don’t always do the honorable, unbeknownst to most people who know me. I have struggled with accepting this and decided I really don’t feel guilty because it is better than attempting a relationship -platonic or otherwise and not giving it my 110%. I don’t have the energy for that. I don’t know how people make energy for relationships and family! I don’t think I’m selfish. I just value my sleep!!!! Of course, part of me wonders what it would be like to have long term friends, family and relationship…Maybe even a long term job…. At this point, long term is just a figment of my imagination. I haven’t made the leap yet (aside from financially) and live from one moment to the next.

Off to pizza and malling to return expensive shoes while under the influence of a wealthier-than-me friend, shop for travel and hiking gear, and prep for Mother’s Day! Have a good one! 🙂

 

 

 

 

The Treadmill

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Yesterday, the friend I had mentioned in my last post who admitted to being envious of my lifestyle when she learned of my upcoming travel plans told me she was getting a new treadmill that has a thing called “iFit”. She wasn’t sure if it was real because she thought the sales representative on the phone “sounded stoned” but apparently, through the screen displayed on the treadmill, she could run “anywhere in the world.” After a Google search, I decided that this is indeed real. Have you heard of it? Through Google Maps, you can “go” anywhere Google has been. She suggested I get one so I could run with her. My current treadmill is a dust collector so she seemed a little sad when I wasn’t about to buy another dust collector/ toy; especially since I can have a lot more fun visiting these places firsthand. Perhaps that wasn’t the most sympathetic reply! I honestly feel that while this is a cool novelty, it would ruin the experience of going places and seeing it for the first time; especially since the cost of a treadmill and the subscription to this service is probably worth its weight in plane tickets!

 

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Jodi Ettenberg’s Blog about eating street foods around the world and other adventures kept my attention most of the evening.

 

I haven’t been sleeping well. I’ve been awaking from strange quickly forgotten dreams in the middle of the night. Last night, I woke up and then started looking at travel blogs. I’m not sure what thought process, if any, led me to do that!

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One of my photos from this morning

 

 

 

I woke up early (right before dawn) and drove out to a patch of wildflowers I’ve been eyeing for the past two springs. I shot some photos on my iPhone and then went to a Starbucks to work on paperwork for work. Whilst there, I listened to music using my earbuds that I purchased last year in Thailand. The earbuds are likely made in China and look just like Apple’s earbuds but have a logo on it: the flag of Cameroon. I had forgotten until this morning I had purchased the earbuds because it was funny to me to buy a Cameroon flag souvenir made in China while roaming Thailand. But before I plugged my ears and got to work, I caught sight of a camera lens. 🙂 Only a few seconds later, the guy with the lens took a sip from it. The guy on the laptop in front of me at Starbucks was using a really cool mug:

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If you’re wondering, yes I’m struggling with getting back on track on paperwork. Haha! I’ll get it done! I always do! Hope you are enjoying your day!